Well, It's been one of those days....

   I just got some stuff goin' on, and it's really getting me down.  I have a friend that I'm afraid I might have lost.  She was angry at someone else, somehow through some different twists, I've been lumped together with that person.  And there was a HUGE misunderstanding about the entire situation.  I keep waiting for her to come around, but I'm not sure if she ever will.  I'm doing everything I can, but I'm just at a loss now. 
   It's looking like there might be reconciliation at some point in time.  Maybe.  But I'm really not at all sure.  I just wish I knew what to do.  Why can't God just come down and give me a message saying "Do the below steps in sequential order, and ALL WILL BE RESOLVED"???
  But there's a difference this time around.  Usually this would send me spiraling, seeing as she's my only actual friend in the world that I actually ever get to see.  But this time, I'm not going to let it eat me alive.  It's definitely getting me down, but it's not gonna take me out!  I'm giving it to God.  He knows how to fix this, and as long as I do my best to do what I know to be right, I know I'll get through this. It's just going to take some time and support.

Wow. Mind over matter.

  It really works people! Yeah, so after talking with some people (most notably my Sunday School teacher) this past Sunday, I decided, as my earlier post states, that I was going to change some things.  Well, today I just decided that I was going to have a good time and be ME, no matter what anyone else thought.  And, to my great surprise, it actually was nice.  People liked it.  That was unexpected.... And once I convinced myself that I was happy, I actually became happy.  Man, I should listen to some of you guys more often........  Anyway, it's been an awesome day, and I'm looking forward to another tomorrow!  And thanks Miranda! :D

♪♫Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forhead.....♪♫

  Well, this has been a good weekend, all things considered.  Yesterday I went to my grandparents and saw all my cousins.  Then we went to Silver Dollar City and saw Jeff and Sheri Easter in concert at Echo Hollow.
  But today was really good.  I'm beginning to realize that there are people out there who are willing to help me. I don't quite know how to accept their help as of yet, but I'm learning.  I am so glad that God has blessed me with such an amazing church family.  I really wouldn't be here without a few in particular, and that's not an exaggeration.
  So yeah, as of today, I'm starting new, starting fresh.  I am under no illusions; I know it won't be easy.  But, as a very good song states: Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead.  Yesterday is a promise that you've broken......This is your life; are you who you want to be?
  So I'm gonna be who I was meant to be.  I don't have all the answers.  I won't always do the right thing.  But I will try.  I will make a conscious effort to become who I'm here to be.  And I will do my best to use the experience that God has given me to help others.  And I will learn to put my value in what God sees, not what other people see.
  So all you guys reading this, be my witnesses.  I am no longer the girl you used to know.  She is dead and gone, and she ain't comin' back!