Will I Ever Get There?

     So, I was looking back at some past posts and I noticed that one of my most "popular" (i.e. most views) posts was a post entitled A Place to Call Home (<<<If ya' don't know what I'm talking about, check it).  I thought I'd do a follow-up of sorts, as I'm still dealing with some of the same issues and everything's kind of coming to a head, so to speak.
     Basically, not much has changed. That's pretty depressing to admit, but it's the truth.  Everything that I said about what I wanted is still true, and I'm really not any closer to "getting there" than I was when I posted that. I still wish I had all those things; I still wish I belonged somewhere; I still wish I had a place to call "home." 
     The difference is, however, that I now am beginning to understand that I have to find that home; I have to make it for myself.  I can't sit around and wait for some miracle to rescue me or some especially benevolent person to reach out save me. Oh no, I have to actually change.
     But that's tough. For me, one of my biggest issues is my inability to lose control, to "cut loose," "let me hair down," or just have fun. It's something that I not only never learned to do, but was actually raised in an environment where doing so would have quite literally endangered my life and the lives of my siblings. If I was not completely aware and alert and in control, things could go dreadfully and drastically wrong in the blink of an eye. 
     But I'm not in that situation anymore; at least, not to that extent at all.  Now I have to learn how to not be so aware, so alert.  I have to learn to miss things. I have to learn not care about how I look or how ridiculous I act.  This sounds a bit risky, I know. But the reality is that what is in all probability completely normal and acceptable gaiety for most people is actually complete and reckless abandon for me - something or which I am incapable at this juncture.  So I have to begin forcing myself to do things that I would consider "immature," "reckless," "stupid," and "pointless."  I have to become "less" than I feel proper in order to become more.  It's a conundrum, and I have a lot of problems with it. But that's the reality of it.
     So that's the place at which I find myself. It's not going to be easy; I know this.  But I'll do it. I would like to ask, however, that you all try to understand my awkward behavior and confusion; I'm trying, I just don't know what to do.  Also, I'd like to honestly and genuinely ask you all to call me out when I do things that "don't work."  I know that's uncomfortable, but, believe me, it's extremely difficult to offend me and I truly do want the input. 
     That's all I've got to say about that.

Another Pointless Post That Will Receive No Feedback.....

     So, this, will likely be the last post of this sort, seeing as NO ONE responds to my impassioned pleas for assistance.  *dejected sigh*
     I want to know what ya'll wanna see up in here! So, if ya wanna see a particular feature, style of post, or just have some ideas on some cool stuff, Tell me! I'm interested in what will make you guys happy! haha, so just gimme some feedback, yo!
    Or not. I could just remain lonely and dejected......XP

Post Title Challenge: The Sequel

      While I pledge, in these challenges, to use a title submitted by a reader/heckler, I shall admit that I simply felt as though this title should be modified.  Therefore, instead of the title "The Uniqueness of Laughs" that was suggested, I have modified it to the title actually displayed.  Nevertheless, this post would never have occurred had it not been for the imaginative talents of one Megan "Yo" Trantham. So, without further ado, it is my great pleasure to present to you, my readers,

   The Necessity Of Laughs

     A snort, a chortle, a chuckle, a crow.  Can anyone truly describe the divine beauty of a laugh?  Is there a more beautiful sound than a free, uninhibited cachinnation?  I dare say not. A laugh is an honest expression of mirth, joy, peace, beatitude, and felicity.  No matter the nature of a laugh, it sends both the producer and the hearer of the harmony into celestial rapture.

     All these are undeniable facts. I however, would like to posit the concept that such an intonation is absolutely essential to life itself.  Studies conducted by the B.R.A.I.N.* demonstrate that frequent verbal show of merriment has the ability to lengthen your life by as much as 20.57389 years (180217.5164 hours).  Also, in a study conducted by the combined efforts of B.R.A.I.N. and G.E.N.I.U.S. Society,** subjects between the ages of 17 and 49 who experienced intense laughter at least twice a week were shown to have increased IQ scores of up to 23 points when compared to their less-mirthful peers.  There were also shown to have increased happiness, satisfaction in life, financial stability, SLQ (Sustainable Living Quotient), and weight loss (up to 94 pounds in some subjects).

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*Bureaucracy of Radically Astute Individualistic Nitwits

**General Enfranchisement of Nerds In the United States Society

†Do not take AeroLaf if you are nursing, pregnant, may become pregnant, are under seventeen, are over forty-nine, are under five feet tall, are over seven feet tall, have ever been to Ireland, may ever go to Ireland, or have a heart condition. Side effects may include nausea, headaches, excessive sweating, excessive salivating, sudden urges to travel to foreign countries, sudden revulsion for victims of depression and natural disasters, expulsion from funerals, and even death in rare cases. Do not continue to take AeroLaf if lack of amusement increases.  Contact a medical professional if you notice changed behavior or experience these or any other side effects. Ask your doctor if AeroLaf is right for you.